Chynna Phillips, 56, reveals she has to undergo surgery to remove a 14
Chynna Phillips has revealed she will have to undergo surgery in order to remove a 14-inch tumor from her leg - while opening up about her terror at the thought of going under anesthesia, describing it as the 'closest thing to death'.
The former musician, 56, revealed this week that she has to get a benign mass taken out from her leg in a video shared to her faith-based YouTube channel, California Preachin'.
And Chynna admitted that she was 'absolutely petrified' of being put under for the procedure - because she said being knocked out with drugs is what she imagines that dying would feel like.
'I am in Los Angeles, it's an absolutely gorgeous day but I'm not feeling so gorgeous on the inside to be honest,' she shared in the new vlog, which was uploaded on Monday.
Chynna Phillips has revealed that she has a 14-inch tumor in her leg that she has to have surgically removed - as she opened up about terror she feels over having to use anesthesia
The former musician, 56, revealed this week that she has to get a huge benign mass taken out from her leg in a video shared to her faith-based YouTube channel, California Preachin'
'I have a tumor in my left leg, I've had it since I was a little girl,' Chynna (seen in 2022) said. 'It's totally benign but it's large, I'm talking very large. It's like 14 inches long and four inches wide'
Chynna added that she's had anesthesia 'so many times' before since got breast implants when she was only 18 years old, but after one ruptured, she had to have them removed. She's seen at age 18 with her sister Michelle Phillips
'I'm really struggling today. I just got off the phone with my friend and I cried my eyes out.'
The mother-of-three explained that there was 'so many things' that was struggling with, but the main thing that was bothering her was her fears over her upcoming surgery.
'I have a tumor in my left leg, I've had it since I was a little girl,' she said. 'They don't know if I was born with it or not.
'It's totally benign but it's large, I'm talking very large. It's like 14 inches long and four inches wide.
'So I have this surgery coming up [to remove it]. It's eight weeks away but it feels like it's around the corner.
'I'm absolutely petrified of anesthesia. I don't know, I just feel like it's the closest thing to death.'
Chynna added that she's 'had it so many times' since she's already had four surgeries on her leg.
She also got breast implants when she was only 18 years old, but after one ruptured, she had to have them removed.
Even so, she admitted that she was 'absolutely petrified' of being put under for the procedure - because she said being knocked out with drugs was 'the closest thing to death'
During the video, Chynna - who converted to Christianity in 2022 - also admitted that ongoing problems in her marriage to Billy Baldwin were getting to her
Chynna admitted that sometimes she feels like she's 'walking on eggshells' around the actor, and she's nervous to share her feelings with him because she doesn't want to 'rock the boat'
'Look, I'm not complaining, I'm just saying that I've had lots of surgeries and I'm sick of it,' she continued.
'I don't like anesthesia and I'm just kind of going in kicking and screaming. But I've got to start praying about this and turning my worries into prayers because I know that Jesus can help me with this. It just sucks.
'They have to make a brand new incision and I already have a huge one-foot scar on my left left leg and now I'm going to have one on the interior of my left leg. It's just frustrating. But it's all going to work out in Jesus' name.'
During the video, Chynna - who converted to Christianity in 2022 - also admitted that ongoing problems in her marriage to Billy Baldwin were getting to her.
Over the last few months, she has been fiercely honest about how her newfound love of Jesus had caused a 'rupture' in their relationship.
Now, she explained that she and Billy - who recently relocated from the east coast to California - had been 'bickering and arguing' more than ever amid the move.
'Moving is hard, it definitely creates a perfect nesting ground for bickering and arguing [with all the] stressors,' she shared.
'So Billy and I have been kind of going at it these past couple of days. We have just been getting on each other's last nerve.
'It's frustrating because just when I feel like we're on a roll and things are starting to get better we start the bickering again.'
Chynna admitted that sometimes she feels like she's 'walking on eggshells' around the actor, who she wed in 1995 and has welcomed three kids with.
Over the last few months, she has been fiercely honest about how her newfound love of Jesus had caused a 'rupture' in their relationship
But she said it was 'partially her fault' because she needs to learn to 'speak up' and 'trust that he'll be able to handle her emotions'
She said she's nervous to share her feelings with him because she doesn't want to 'rock the boat' or 'put him in a bad mood.'
'Billy's my life partner. He's the one I want to be able to talk to when I'm feeling the most vulnerable or the most upset,' she told her viewers.
'He's the one I want to be able to [come to] but a lot of times I don't because I don't want to rock the boat or put him in a bad mood. I'm walking on eggshells.'
But she said it was 'partially her fault' because she needs to learn to 'speak up' and 'trust that he'll be able to handle her emotions.'
'But I start to think if I share then that's going to send him into a depression or he's going to have anxiety,' she added.
'It just comes down to me not wanting to trigger him. But the truth is, me having that fear is keeping us from true intimacy.
'It's preventing me from opening up to him. I'm trying to guard his feelings and yet I'm causing more trouble in our marriage by doing that. I'm shooting myself in the foot.'
Even so, Chynna concluded on a happier note, stating, 'One thing I do know for sure is that the pain I'm feeling today is not going to compare to the joy that I will be feeling for eternity. Sometimes I just have to remind myself of that.'